BJ's AnD S&M

BJ's AnD S&M


	Named after the creator, Mike, four most frequent posters, Brittany, Jason, Anna, Sarah and newest member Dorothy. archives Tuesday, March 30, 2004 You're part of what is supposed to be a super structured environment. That includes stupid rules. Sorry hon. At least you don't have you parents harping you. I am so tired of being at home. I hate that I have little choice but to stay here. posted by Anonymous 11:50 AM Monday, March 29, 2004 Ya, they do. I'm not so freaked out about it today as I was this morning. I should be able to get a waiver for both things. I hope. I'm just sick of having to deal with one stupid ass rule after another. posted by Jason 10:50 PM They don't have some kind of lotion you can put on it or something? posted by Anonymous 10:03 PM I found out this morning that I might be disqualified from ROTC for my old allergy to nuts and history of minor eczema. I'm trying not to think about the fact that my life plans for 3 years could be destroyed by flaky skin. posted by Jason 8:20 AM Sunday, March 28, 2004 Damn right. posted by Jason 4:11 PM Three/four day fast ended last night, at midnight with some of my most favorite food. Now the lame part. I'm 10 pounds lighter and not motivated to gain it back, even though I know I need to. The kicker was almost passing out AGAIN, at work. This happened on Thursday, but I think that had a lot to with the emotional trama I was dealing with. Yesterday was no excuse and after that, everyone knew. Things would have been easier, had I not lost my balance, breath, saw stars, and grown very pale in one the most public places in the store. Meh. Stop worrying, Jason. You can stuff me when I get up there. posted by Anonymous 10:57 AM Friday, March 26, 2004 I feel human today. I think I was in shock before, but now I'm okay. My hair is fun (I look like Skully) and I'm going out to see "Jersey Girls" with Cas, Ariel, and Paul. Interesting things with this crowd...Cas and Ariel spend time together and talk like Paul and I do, yet Paul and Ariel are dating and Cas and I were dating. Not to say the the respective couples didn't spend time together, but I still find this interesting. Now I just to start eating again and there will be no more pain. posted by Anonymous 4:17 PM Thats no good brit. No more suicide talk; no guy is worth that much. posted by Jason 12:24 AM Thursday, March 25, 2004 You're damn lucky it rained. I think I was serious. posted by Anonymous 11:20 PM What? Is it hot or something? posted by Jason 3:25 PM If it doesn't rain today, I am going to kill myself. posted by Anonymous 8:36 AM Monday, March 22, 2004 Fremont Main Library doesn't open until 1pm on Monday. Now how the hell was I supppsed to know that? And since when does the library carry tax forms? posted by Anonymous 1:12 PM Sunday, March 21, 2004 Today I climbed the stairwell to the top of the Bank of America tower in seattle. Thats over 70 stories. I'm kinda tired now :-p posted by Jason 3:09 PM Friday, March 19, 2004 We both felt and looked great. We enjoyed the show. (for free) We enjoyed the food. (for free) We enjoyed driving around and listening to music. (kinda free) And we enjoyed talking over desserts (not free) and kissing each other good night in his car around 1am. Then, I go off into my normal "you can't be happy mode" and he writes these beautiful things and BAM! Happy is me. I'm beginning to think that happiness can be something real and tangible. Not that I'm miss suicide or anything, but I'm pretty kept to myself and dark (as a scorpio should be). But he a lot alike in that sense, so we understand the need to be alone and wanting to be together at the same time. We talked about these things. It was great. And it was honest. I don't think I've ever had such a nice first date. (I don't think I've ever had an official first date. I always skipped that part and went into the title mode and did the boyfriend/girlfriend thing from there out.) This is nice. It is of our will and not our friends', however much they would like to think so, and we're going at our pace. Ah, serenity. As for school, it is spring break currently, and I have class tomorrow. Suck. But at least it is the fun class. posted by Anonymous 12:58 AM Thursday, March 18, 2004 So what exactly constitutes a successful date? I'm currently enjoying my newfound freedom from finals :D currently rocking out to klint - closer posted by Jason 2:39 PM Date success. I'm still soaring. posted by Anonymous 10:59 AM Wednesday, March 17, 2004 Go Jason. rockin' out to 'Karma Police' Talked to Mike today. He says hi. I have a date tonight. And I'm lookin good. I'm actually going to wear a dress...and don't die here, but a shortish dress. Wow. Yeah. Maybe he'll think the same thing. I'm hopin'. posted by Anonymous 6:23 PM Tuesday, March 16, 2004 Two finals down, only one to go. Wooo! posted by Jason 9:31 PM A week or so ago, I was waiting for the elevator on my floor and thought I recognized a girl I was casually aquainted with in my history class. She was all dressed up, so I asked her if she was going out because she looked really good. She was really quiet, and when we were getting onto the elevator I realized that it wasn't the girl I knew, so I had just said that to a complete stranger. I was sure she thought I was a creep, and I felt like one, but then today she gave me a big smile and said hi. I guess I didn't screw up so bad after all. posted by Jason 6:24 PM Monday, March 15, 2004 One final down, two to go. posted by Jason 11:24 AM Friday, March 12, 2004 I'm not into titles or anything, but now things are official with Cas. I'm not squealing with joy...haha! I totally am. Everything about this is just so amazing. Like I'm going to wake up tomorrow and he won't even know my name. But then I wake up and he's left a message somewhere and it must be real. posted by Anonymous 8:29 AM Thursday, March 11, 2004 I went for a walk with Cas a couple days ago. It was splendid. We're not official or anything, (I don't think...anway...) but I'm not planning on seeing anyone else. He's really wonderful. Oh, and correction. He's not an atheist. Sorry Mike. Somewhere between buddism and agnoism (wow...I don't think that is right...). Whatever makes a person happy. I'm flexible with this. But yeah. Good times with Cas. And who knew he'd kiss me before I got to him??? (No one, apparently.) I'm not complaining. posted by Anonymous 6:41 PM Saturday, March 06, 2004 yesterday e'lise and i decided to go for a walk to a nearby park. its kinda cloudy, but we dont think it will rain. well, 10 minutes out, it doesnt rain: it hails. the more we say its going to let up soon, the bigger the hail gets. it starts to hurt as it hits my head, ears, and neck. so we head home. as soon as we get back to her room, the sun comes out and its really pretty. God must have been in an ornery mood that afternoon. posted by Jason 4:58 PM I'm learning some really cool stuff in my theology class. Unfortunatly, most of it is the stuff that the teacher just brushes over because he isn't very interested in it. posted by Jason 2:35 PM Thursday, March 04, 2004 I just got back from the deepest, heaviest, most fucked up play I've ever seen. Whoa. There is no way I'm sleeping tonight. But I liked it. posted by Anonymous 11:39 PM Wednesday, March 03, 2004 I just got my hair cut again. I really like it short. I bought a book called "weight lifting for dummies. I want to start working out using weights instead of just doing pushups and situps. I'm looking forward to it. I'm finally past the point where I hate working out. Now I look forward to it, because I know how good it is for me. I'm also having a much easier time managing what I eat. I guess to get in shape you just need to change your life-style. It sure took me long enough :-p posted by Jason 8:01 PM Tuesday, March 02, 2004 Life is good again. I'm not sick anymore. I'm seeing the horses once a week or more. I'm not around people I don't want to be around. School is good. The car is beat up and running well. My parents and I have still have moments, but everyone knows that they are loved. My little brother is 18 as of yesterday and I still haven't swallowed that pill, but I have faith that he will find his place in this world. Cas and I make slow progress, just as I've always dreamed. He's really intelligent and talented. And Mike likes that he is an atheist. I don't really care either way. And I've been hanging out with a different crowd (including Cas) and its been a lot of fun. A nice way to unload my constant stress over nothing. I have a small solo in the concert on Saturday night. I'm wondering if we're doing the same piece in Seattle. Maybe. Anyway, math is calling. posted by Anonymous 9:17 AM