BJ's AnD S&M

BJ's AnD S&M


	Named after the creator, Mike, four most frequent posters, Brittany, Jason, Anna, Sarah and newest member Dorothy. archives Wednesday, July 31, 2002 And Natalie says.... PersaGNATalie: hmmm...well i personally think that there's more to it then just that friend thing PersaGNATalie: something ..she doens't kno how to express in word just quite yet Shdy314: ok Shdy314: any clue? PersaGNATalie: yeah...that' is what i think......but ...i have no idea....it could be anything...girls ...u need to understand....r a little complex....yet very simple..... PersaGNATalie: it's all perspective PersaGNATalie: to one girl....on thing can be REALLY important to another.....nothin PersaGNATalie: so.....yeah....but i have a feelin that there's more to it then just that GA thing....something deeper... Shdy314: like? PersaGNATalie: like i said....i dont' kno.w....it coudl be anything.....ask her Shdy314: i tried Shdy314: do i lack character? Shdy314: i dont think i do. maybe im wrong PersaGNATalie: and if she really doesnt' want to be anything....shes either not worth it...or she'' relize later.....and lackin character....i can't really say...b/c again..it's all on what "personal" people say PersaGNATalie: me personally ./...i think u have character...everyone does..... Shdy314: thanx for invalidating my character PersaGNATalie: but it's true that sometimes....u can be a little blunt.....sometimes alittle tact is ok ...ya kno?/.....i think it just depends on how people react to it...ya kno Shdy314: yes i do Shdy314: i do use tact sometimes PersaGNATalie: yeah...but....it's not like yer NOT "kool" Shdy314: when its serious Shdy314: i dont see anything wrong with being blunt Shdy314: i know its brash and it isnt subtle Shdy314: but its honest PersaGNATalie: yea.....but sometime...people cant' handle it....i think it's just the way people are.... PersaGNATalie: idk....i mean....i think yer a kool guy...so sleep on this...and decied tomorrow PersaGNATalie: what to do Shdy314: it is tomorrow PersaGNATalie: haha Shdy314: was I wrong? PersaGNATalie: ok....well LATer then hahah PersaGNATalie: um..... PersaGNATalie: personally i saw fault in both sides Shdy314: what was my fault? PersaGNATalie: well....honestly? Shdy314: yes plz Shdy314: i value honesty Shdy314: thats why im blunt PersaGNATalie: from what read out of it......i just felt like u didn't really want to listen ..to what she had to say...well like half the time.. PersaGNATalie: like ....here Shdy314: i assume ur copying and pasting something:-) PersaGNATalie: haha yeah...hold on PersaGNATalie: HAHA sorry PersaGNATalie: i cant' find it PersaGNATalie: but it was about PersaGNATalie: how stuff happenes in your family... PersaGNATalie: i mean...she was pretty dumb in not listening...and the name callin..and asumming things... PersaGNATalie: but u as a person got to understand...she only goes on what she sees..... Shdy314: true but she also has what she sees me do with her and other people PersaGNATalie: well then see... i dont' really kno yer realtionship...with all that...so hehe.i cant' really comment on that Shdy314: I always thought I was TOO nice PersaGNATalie: eh.... Shdy314: thats why i was so upset/pissed/frustrated that she was mad at me for not driving her somewhere Shdy314: a small no vs. countless times I went out of my way to help her. Almost always just because I wanted to. Not because she asked. PersaGNATalie: idk...maybe....that's true.. u are too nice...but how do u kno that she was mad about u not drivin ...i have a feelin that that was just what set it off....so the "it" is deeper stuff Shdy314: ic PersaGNATalie: but she may not kno how to put it in words.... PersaGNATalie: that happens to girls alot Shdy314: yea PersaGNATalie: yup Shdy314: well sorry to keep u up good night PersaGNATalie: oh no...it's all good!! Shdy314: most of this will be on the blog:-) PersaGNATalie: oh...wow!! haha i have the privilege of getting there again hahaha Shdy314: yes Shdy314: thats what it is....A privilege Dont be shy. Comments? and be honest. posted by Mikael, Shady, God 12:47 AM Colorful Descriptions. God Luv U2: anyway... i don't think you're wrong not to drive her God Luv U2: i think that's a load of monkey anus droppings Shdy314: ok. God Luv U2: you can't let ppl take advantage of you God Luv U2: and use the cover of friendship as a shield Shdy314: thats true. God Luv U2: that's a load of turkey piss Shdy314: this sounds like a comment Shdy314: i should put it on my blog posted by Mikael, Shady, God 12:02 AM Tuesday, July 30, 2002 Relationships of all kinds are like sand held in your hand. held loosely, with an open hand, the sand remains where it is. the minute you close your hand and squeeze tightly to hold on, the sand trickles through your fingers. you may hold on to some of it, but most will be spilt. a relationship is like that. held loosely, with respect and freedom for the other person, it is likely to remain intact. but held too tightly, too possessively, and the relationship slips away and is lost. posted by Mikael, Shady, God 7:13 PM Extremely personal... Shdy314 (12:26:09 PM): were you ever going to call me? DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (12:27:14 PM): what do you mean Shdy314 (12:30:11 PM): I mean that I tried to tell you that I feel like you take me for granted as your friend and then u got booted or signed off. Silly me. I thought it might be important enough to talk about that you might have wanted to call if you couldnt talk online. And you just havent called for along time. DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (12:31:28 PM): i figured you were telling me our friendship was over Shdy314 (12:32:28 PM): =-Oand u still didnt try and call or anything? Shdy314 (12:32:32 PM): do u want it to be? DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (12:33:41 PM): well i thought you probably would Shdy314 (12:34:11 PM): call? DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (12:34:19 PM): yes DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (12:34:22 PM): or something DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (12:34:41 PM): you havent exactly been on my good side lately anyway Shdy314 (12:34:48 PM): oh? DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (12:35:45 PM): and i'm also very sick Shdy314 (12:36:08 PM): what exactly have I done? to get on ur bad side? Shdy314 (12:36:20 PM): not drive u to great america? DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (12:37:21 PM): thats one thing, and it wasn't that you wouldnt drive there, it was the circumstances, i thought you were being a dick about it Shdy314 (12:38:02 PM): thats fucking incredible DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (12:39:12 PM): it wouldnt have even been out of your way. you even said so. my grandpa could have taken me to your place, it would have been 2 minutes out of your way, to get off at the exit and you could have met kindra Shdy314 (12:40:52 PM): you know just because I drive you a lot of places so we can actually spend time together sometimes so I can pretend like youre still a good friend doesnt make me your fucking chaffeur DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (12:41:34 PM): any friend or even aquaintance would have done it when its right on the way to where they're going anyway DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (12:42:01 PM): anyway a lot of the time you OFFER to do it Shdy314 (12:42:06 PM): i know. Shdy314 (12:42:12 PM): and ONE fucking time I said no Shdy314 (12:42:19 PM): wow what a dick DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (12:42:38 PM): yeah because my g/f was with me, thats why and thats why it pissed me off Shdy314 (12:43:03 PM): You think I said no because kindra was with you? DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (12:43:08 PM): its not just me, my whole family thinks it was rude of you DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (12:43:17 PM): yes i do Shdy314 (12:43:31 PM): why would I not want to meet kindra????? DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (12:43:42 PM): maybe cuz every other time you said yes it meant we'd spend time alone Shdy314 (12:43:42 PM): I wanted to meet her and I dont care what your family thinks DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (12:44:06 PM): another thing that pisses me off is the way that you treat your family Shdy314 (12:44:30 PM): you are my only friend that actually likes my family DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (12:44:33 PM): youve got a lot to learn Shdy314 (12:44:44 PM): about? DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (12:45:15 PM): i didnt say i liked them, liking isnt the issue, you're downright rude to your mother, i can understand with your siblings sometimes but jesus DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (12:45:29 PM): plus what other friends are you talking about? chris? wow Shdy314 (12:45:34 PM): I am not rude to my mother! Ashley cusses at her Shdy314 (12:45:38 PM): chis jason tim Shdy314 (12:45:47 PM): britney Shdy314 (12:46:02 PM): thats about it I dont have many friends DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (12:46:33 PM): you cant just compare ashleys behavior, i agree thats not right, but you should have more maturity than that Shdy314 (12:46:56 PM): Everyone has a relationship with their mother. Mine isnt the same as yours Shdy314 (12:47:08 PM): But I do treat her with respect DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (12:47:24 PM): for gods sake DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (12:47:48 PM): well if you do i didnt see it Shdy314 (12:48:22 PM): Im the only one who even says thank you to her Shdy314 (12:48:28 PM): or listens to what she says. Shdy314 (12:48:41 PM): like when she says no Im the only one that actually doesnt do it Shdy314 (12:48:51 PM): and when she asks me to do something my NO's ar enot serious DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (12:48:53 PM): thats great mike DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (12:49:34 PM): im just telling you i wasnt impressed with what i saw DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (12:49:56 PM): you can defend yourself all you want Shdy314 (12:51:32 PM): I feel I should defend myself from something that isnt true and really shouldnt be decided from 4-5 days of seeing me with her DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (12:51:51 PM): what bothers me even more is that you don't see it... Shdy314 (12:52:45 PM): No one sees it but you Shdy314 (12:53:03 PM): I dont even see why its your business how dysfunctional my family is Shdy314 (12:53:32 PM): If u get in a fight with ur mom ur not suddenly going to be on my bad side DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (12:54:55 PM): you dont get it, thats fine Shdy314 (12:55:15 PM): get what? you think I dont respect my mom? Shdy314 (12:55:19 PM): was there more to it? DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (12:55:38 PM): the way people treat their parents or family says a lot about a persons character Shdy314 (12:55:38 PM): If i didnt respect her or care what someone about about my relationship with her I wouldnt defend myself Shdy314 (12:55:52 PM): YOU THINK I LACK CHARACTER? Shdy314 (12:56:25 PM): well i hate my father? he used to hit my mom? Do I lack even more character now?? Shdy314 (12:56:34 PM): I guess so Shdy314 (12:57:46 PM): and when my sisters call me gay every time they see me because Im playing a video game or reading a book and I get angry at them I guess I deserve it because Im just such an asshole DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (12:58:11 PM): grow up for gods sake Shdy314 (12:58:34 PM): Or everytime I go out of my way to help you or jason or chris I guess none of that matters because my character is just so flawed and I dont treat my mother with enough reverence Shdy314 (12:58:41 PM): grow up? Shdy314 (12:58:57 PM): Im acting childish because im upset? DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (12:59:47 PM): ok well if your side is true and you have such a wealth of character, why is it so many people can't stand you? Shdy314 (1:00:14 PM): Because I dont bs. Shdy314 (1:00:32 PM): and Im critical Shdy314 (1:00:45 PM): I got most of my personality from my mom DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (1:00:48 PM): ok DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (1:01:17 PM): sounds like you've got it all figured out. so you shouldnt have a hard time finding a friend to replace me DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (1:01:27 PM): maybe one that doesn't need so many favors Shdy314 (1:01:34 PM): and I have trouble socially from previous domestic problems and low self esteem from my asshole dad Shdy314 (1:02:14 PM): and moving from arizona to here made me so shy I used to be afraid to buy things or talk to anyone besides my family Shdy314 (1:02:47 PM): Ive never been bothered by doing you favors but you cant expect me to do everything you ever ask of me Shdy314 (1:03:10 PM): It was an inconvenience and I was going to be hella tired that morning Kindra had nothing to do with it Shdy314 (1:03:29 PM): I wanted to meet kindra I thought she was going to be here longer but I could have met her saturday Shdy314 (1:03:43 PM): or maybe friday night both days off Shdy314 (1:03:48 PM): even wednesday night after work Shdy314 (1:04:04 PM): but you didnt call me and u were never there.... so unfortunately I didnt DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (1:05:11 PM): i think its time to get over those childhood fears. Shdy314 (1:05:25 PM): i did. I can talk to people now. DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (1:05:29 PM): i told you that we were busy thurs and fri and sat we left at like 8AM for the airport so no it wouldnt have worked Shdy314 (1:05:38 PM): I told you I went to therapy Shdy314 (1:05:45 PM): wednesday night would have DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (1:05:52 PM): no you said you were busy till 11 Shdy314 (1:06:09 PM): oh yeah there was a cadet meeting Shdy314 (1:06:21 PM): well then it was just bad timing but i could have met her early saturday morning DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (1:06:37 PM): but you're tired in the early mornings Shdy314 (1:06:56 PM): yes when i have to go to work but its not a big deal when Im free the rest of the day Shdy314 (1:07:20 PM): and it was also that monday night I had gotten 3 hours sleep and tuesday night was like 5 Shdy314 (1:08:08 PM): Did you tell kindra I didnt drive you because of her? DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (1:09:32 PM): you didnt mention that you wouldnt get much sleep tues night Shdy314 (1:10:23 PM): well sorry I didnt know I had to give u a detailed explanation for why I just didnt feel like driving you wednesday I didnt realize it was going to dissolve our friendship Shdy314 (1:10:31 PM): otherwise I mightve sent you my itinerary DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (1:10:35 PM): no, i just told her exactly what you said and then she was like "well he was being kinda rude" and i said it was probably cuz youd have to drive both of us Shdy314 (1:10:59 PM): it had nothing to do with her. I swear DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (1:11:21 PM): whatever it doesnt matter. and mike its been coming on for a while, just like you said Shdy314 (1:11:44 PM): I didnt want it to happen though DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (1:12:11 PM): shit happens Shdy314 (1:12:24 PM): so u dont care at all DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (1:12:56 PM): sure i care but its just one of those things Shdy314 (1:13:22 PM): "its just one of those things?" Shdy314 (1:13:41 PM): Im crying. Fuck and its not even a big deal to you DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (1:14:32 PM): well i dont feel the same way for you that you do for me, you know that Shdy314 (1:15:05 PM): You were my best friend. DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (1:15:12 PM): yeah im sad and im also very sick as i mentioned before, i dont have much energy and strength Shdy314 (1:15:29 PM): u said i was ur best friend DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (1:15:36 PM): well you were a good friend to me DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (1:15:56 PM): well at one point i guess you were one of my best friends Shdy314 (1:15:56 PM): but then i didnt drive you to GA Shdy314 (1:16:24 PM): Did you just use me the entire time? DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (1:16:32 PM): stop oversimplifying it jesus Shdy314 (1:16:40 PM): thats basically it DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (1:16:49 PM): no its not and no i didnt Shdy314 (1:16:57 PM): were not friends now because ... why? DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (1:17:00 PM): why the fuck would i spend so much time with you if i was using you Shdy314 (1:17:14 PM): why the fuck would me not driving you somewhere bother you Shdy314 (1:17:21 PM): i dunno why did you spend so much time with you Shdy314 (1:17:26 PM): it didnt mean anything I guess Shdy314 (1:17:46 PM): you wanted our friendship to end. When I expressed concerns you were hoping I was saying it was over. DiViNeHoLLyWoOd (1:17:54 PM): whatever, i cant do this right now Shdy314 (1:18:15 PM): I dont want to not be friends. I cant replace you. You know I wasnt serious There was a bit more but its unimportant. Any thoughts? posted by Mikael, Shady, God 1:25 PM Monday, July 29, 2002 How about if you're terrified of moths? For the past month about every other day I wake up in the middle of the night because I can hear a moth flying around in my blinds, then I have to go poke the blinds and the moth dives out towards me and I have to chase it down and kill it cause moths are like the creepiest insects ever. Anyway, I'm counting down the days till I move out- yesterday was officially one month. Hope you're all having a good summer. posted by Anonymous 10:13 PM i just watched "the mothman prophecies," and i dont think ill be able to walk alone in the dark for a week. that movie is SO good. you have to go get it and watch it, especially if youve EVER had ANY curiosity about precognition or ghosts. what are you waiting for? get it! posted by Jason 9:50 PM Feeling Normal. Shdy314: You like when European men touch you Tim? Shdy314: or just any men God Luv U2: oh yes God Luv U2: i love it Shdy314: Good thought I was the only one. I dont feel so unusual now. posted by Mikael, Shady, God 12:35 AM Friday, July 26, 2002 "Any man that says they hate shopping has never been to a gun and boat show":-) Jeff Foxworthy posted by Mikael, Shady, God 2:47 AM Just remembered a conversation I had with my family a loooooong time ago. I bought a light for my keychain which reminded me of it. Slightly paraphrased of course but it is all true and very accurate. It has to do with an electronic second key that has to be plugged into a slot in my car for it to start. Me to my mom: You know that electronic key I have to use to start my car. Maybe instead of just leaving it in there for convenience, I should take it out and use it the right way so it is harder to steal my car. Mom: Dont be silly. You wanna take that off your key chain every single time you get into your car? And put it back on when you get in? Just leave it in there no one is going to steal your car. Ashley in back seat: Yeah, Mike that's the dumbest thing I've ever heard. You're going to have to take it off your key chain every time you want to drive. You're so stupid. Like anyone's going to steal your car. Mom: Yeah itd be a hassle Mike. Girls: :Derisive Laughter: Me: I would just get a quick release key chain.... Everyone else: :Silence: Mom: ...Yeah. That could work. HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE BOOYA I AM A GENIUS! DO NOT FUCK WITH ME! I AM SMARTER THAN YOU(PROBABLY) posted by Mikael, Shady, God 1:05 AM Thursday, July 25, 2002 Accidentally deleted it?? I'm sure...anyways, I just rambled on to say that its not fair that you are mad at me. You can't say that I don't make time for you. I did. We talked on the phone for a couple hours, I let you come over, use my internet, take a nap on my couch, and then you left without even saying goodbye. I tried to compromise. I asked if we could see a later showing of the movie...I just think this is a stupid reason for people to stop speaking to each other. Anyways, after that, I mentioned that I had updated my web page, which I just did again, this morning. Go see! http://www.gurlpages.com/brit_brat100 If it wasnt an accident why would I apologize and ask you to rewrite it? Mikael Caelestis. posted by Anonymous 9:36 AM My friends are so funny. Meet Gnat. AKA Natalie. PersaGNATalie: rite now im lookin for quotes Shdy314: from? PersaGNATalie: just places...where ever Shdy314: One of my faves: God made me an atheist. Who are you to question his wisdom? PersaGNATalie: WHAT?!?!?1that doesn't make SENSE!?!?! posted by Mikael, Shady, God 2:17 AM Wednesday, July 24, 2002 Sorry Britney I was editing your post to comment on it but accidentally deleted it. I apologize please repost what you wrote. posted by Mikael, Shady, God 10:17 PM Here is an essay I had to write for English class in order to graduate. I had to write a college entry essay and I used the simple prompt of telling them about yourselves. I wrote 3/4 of this half asleep and I personally do not think its a particularly good essay. But for some odd reason Ms. Beck loved it so I've been meaning to go back and reread it. Well I finally found it so I thought you all might as well read it. InfoBop My name is Mikael. I will now explain to you the most important thing about myself. I am insane and cannot be explained. I shall now attempt to tell you about myself and my beliefs. Mathematicians, physicists, engineers etc. view life as a program. A collection of numbers preferably ones and zeros strung out in what is most likely an infinitely long binary equation. And as with any mathematical equation it has an answer, The Theory of Everything advocated by Stephen Hawking. The wet dream of every physicist on Earth. All of them out there waiting, hoping and longing for the epiphany that will let them finally figure out life. My epiphany came long ago. I woke up one day, looked around and realized that the basis of life is not found in numerical data. The content of life is data. Life is the jazz. So what’s more important? The data or the jazz? Sure, sure, information should be free and all that, but the jazz is in how you do it, what you do it to, and in almost getting caught without getting caught. Data is 1 and 0’s. Life is the jazz. In 1 dimension I find existence and here exists data. In 2 dimensions I find life and here lies that which cannot alter data. In 3 I find freedom and here lies true life. Life as we consider it. Life that can alter data. A jazz musician stands on the street playing the sax. See the notes float through the air and interact with the eardrums and snare. It’s all a mathematical equation. The way the saxophone works can be broken down into a string of numbers. The melody of the notes, and the way the ear receives and transmits that beat. But how the jazz man does it is another matter. The timing of his breaths, the push of the buttons turns that data into jazz, a groove, and a beat that makes you tap your foot and throw money into his hat. That’s how you have to live your life. Its not the data you get it’s how you make that data dance to your jazz. Needless to say, that morning everything looked different. Everything seemed to have a rhythm. A rhythm that ebbed and flowed crashed and rolled. The world was unified. The wheels on the bus turned differently than other cars wheels. I was a scared little boy before that day. But I woke up enlightened. I never backed down or doubted myself again. Those that used to terrorize me were forced to move on. You can’t fear the data. Now I stand up for myself and follow my own style. Never the dictates of data. So many live their lives as automatons, fed information, reacting to it in a predictable, safe and logical manner. This is in so this is what will wear. Never taking risks for fear of failure while their own failure to take risks leaves them more miserable than if they had simply dared and fallen. That is not life. Life requires thought, and true thought creates a unique style to the individual. Take language for example. How many people plateau in their writing skills? They write short, staccato sentence fragments and sentences that make them look like a Jr. high flunkie, not a high school senior. They show no logical organization and follow the prompt incorrectly. Those that don’t have style. They jazz. They master language and make it bend to their will in syntax, imagery, diction leaving a style so unique as to be a fingerprint. A keen eye can see these prints. Shakespeare leaves telltale clues in his writing, and an expert know this work must be Kant, his ideas on reason, and word choice, his organization all scream Kant. Not some 7th grade reject. Their unique style is hidden within their art. Caesar Chavez does not move or jab like Oscar de la Hoya. They both follow their own jazz. The way Thoreau wrote of wildness I write of Jazz. This is what I always attempt to tap. I tap myself. My thoughts, my reasoning, emotions, fears, and create my style. I stopped believing in god this day. I now believe in humanity and information and freedom. I believe in our uniqueness and ability to alter the flow of information and data. There have been so many names for this throughout the ages. Tai Chi, Ki, Feng Shui and more all variants of the philosophy I now espouse. Many of my peers think I’m insane and others claim I’m brilliant but dancing that fine line between the two. Chose which side you wish, benefactors or detractors it matters not for my only goal is to make others think. Choose a side and defend it. Choose your side wisely and research your options. I want to force others to think and free their minds as I have. I want them to simply be open. Jokingly, my friends say I should be voted most likely to form a cult. If so, I hereby decree open forums shall be the temples of my religion. I take it as a compliment that they see me as persuasive and clever enough to fool sheep into a fold, but any decent charlatan can fool the weak-minded into his plans simply by bending their ear with that they wish to hear. I want to spread jazz and force those sheep to wake. To understand their data. My holy book would contain these words of wisdom. Don’t let the data control you, master the data. The input may be up to fate but the output is up to you. If given colors and shapes create art. You are a processor. View the data that is the basis for life like the information on your hard drive. Now you must view the hackers as Gods. Be a hacker. Virus’s are that data you do not want, death, hardship, disease. You must detect, block, and handle them to maintain your drive, your life. If you can achieve that, you have attained Nirvana, bliss, spiritual and technological enlightenment. Mastery of the data. posted by Mikael, Shady, God 10:13 PM Shdy314: ur pretty predictable God Luv U2: fuck you God Luv U2: motherfucker Shdy314: yes u should say that God Luv U2: take that back God Luv U2: TAKE THAT BACK God Luv U2: or you will find yourself God Luv U2: sleeping w/ a dead horse tomorrow Is it just me or don't you just love Tim. He's so quotable. posted by Mikael, Shady, God 12:44 AM Tuesday, July 23, 2002 I have one good friend. And he's in Seattle. That's no good. posted by Mikael, Shady, God 9:30 PM he hehe...Mike, you like to screw with everyone. You're still mad at me. I updated my web page with new pictures and poetry. There are other small things too, but unless you were really paying attention before, you probably won't notice. So, go check it out. http://www.gurlpages.com/brit_brat100 posted by Anonymous 12:17 PM "I was walking across a bridge one day, and i saw a man standing on the edge, about to jump off. So I ran over and said 'stop! don't do it!' 'Why shouldn't I?' he said. I said, 'Well, there's so much to live for!' He said, 'Like what?' I said, 'Well...are you religious or atheist?' He said, 'Religious.' I said, 'Me too! Are you christian or buddhist?' He said, 'Christian.' I said, "Me too! Are you catholic or protestant?" He said, 'Protestant.' I said, 'Me too! Are you episcopalian or baptist?' He said, 'Baptist!' I said, 'Wow! Me too! Are you baptist church of god or baptist church of the lord?' He said, 'Baptist church of god!' I said, 'Me too! Are you original baptist church of god, or are you reformed baptist church of god?' He said, 'Reformed baptist church of god!' I said, 'Me too! Are you reformed baptist church of god, reformation of 1879, or reformed baptist church of god, reformation of 1915?' He said, 'Reformed baptist church of god, reformation of 1915!' I said, 'Die, heretic scum', and pushed him off." --Emo Phillips posted by Mikael, Shady, God 3:03 AM Shdy314: tim r u a guy or a chick? God Luv U2: guy fuck u Shdy314: then stop the whining its fine to be down but dont act like a girl God Luv U2: fuck u God Luv U2: dfie God Luv U2: die u Shdy314: hehehehe Shdy314: gosh its fun to fuck with u posted by Mikael, Shady, God 2:38 AM Saturday, July 20, 2002 I love you internet. Never leave me again! Mwah Mwah posted by Mikael, Shady, God 11:37 PM Friday, July 19, 2002 The Gladiator sound track is so beautiful...the music is so moving...its one of those things that you just sit and listen to. You can't help it the first time around. Hans Zimmer is amazing. I have really grown to like his style. I should have listened to those people who were raving about how good it is...thank you, even if I was a bit slow... =) posted by Anonymous 3:47 PM Wednesday, July 17, 2002 I am dangerous now...I have a working web cam. No more walking around the house in a towel after a shower for me...he he...anyways, we'll see if I can figure out how to make it work in chat. That would be pretty cool. Who knows what I will showing the world now!? posted by Anonymous 5:13 PM weve got a house now that well be renting for a year or so. its in edmonds county. its an ok house, smaller than my old one. really big backyard with a horseshoe court (it has the bars but i'll have to make a sand pit). the neighborhood is ok. great area for shopping; like every store you could want is in the area. ill be moving in there on the first. ill be in cali probably from the 25th until the 1st. that is subject to some change. a day or so of that i'll be with a friend in oakland, but the rest of the time ill (hopefully) be staying with mike. i look forward to seeing you all. posted by Jason 4:31 PM Tuesday, July 16, 2002 New Dave Matthews Band CD came out today (Busted Stuff), i just got it, its awesome, go buy it!!!! Also while youre at it, go and buy my wife's CD, her name is Avril Mendoza-Lavigne, the name was too long so she just kept her maiden name on the cd. (hey shes 17 and canadian, its like it was meant to be!) posted by Anonymous 2:00 PM Monday, July 15, 2002 Time is precious. I realize that more and more everyday. I spend so much time alone, reflecting and daydreaming. How much have I lost saying what I want to do rather than doing it? Jason is my best example. I have one week, one week that I may get one day of to be alone with him, and then we will be miles apart with only my phone card and hoped up visits between us. I spent so much time worrying about what could happen or go wrong or whatever else that I couldn't even see what was right in front of me. Cherish the few you have. Spend what time you can and hold on to those memories. They are the only things that get me through one more day... posted by Anonymous 1:03 PM Sunday, July 14, 2002 To all the people that dont make time for me... Fuck you. posted by Mikael, Shady, God 9:29 PM i went to a medieval faire today. it was really cool. lots of people were dressed in traditional garb, and there was a decent tourney with knights duking it out in full armor. good stuff. we had lunch in a tavern and ate some crazy food. first, we had this spiced grape juice call muste (moost). it was a pretty wild flavor, but not bad. then we had a plate of fruit and cheese. tart apples, nice pears, and some cheese that was way too strong for me. btw, the accomidations were cool. there was no plate, you eat of a flat piece of bread called a trencer. the cups were called mazers and they were really shallow. we had a spoon too, and i wished i had a dagger. anyway, the main course was pretty bizare. the name escapes me, but it was shredded ham, hamburger, some kind of nut, and, get this, strawberry, all mixed together. i didnt love it, but it was ok. the bread was my favorite part, it was so good. anyway, good times at this place, and if anyone comes to visit me ill have to take them to this place. its called camlann village. stay cool everyone. posted by Jason 9:27 PM Epiphany: What is the most powerful force in the Universe? Its not love. Its Time. You always hear how precious time is. Carpe Diem, seize the day. Appreciate the time you have here because it is such a finite piece of the infinite Time. Therefore and this is my epiphany: Love is the willingness to give up that time to another. To happily and freely devote those seconds ticking away you can never gain back ... thats love. What makes someone a true friend? a true lover? It is that they always make time for you. They never say now is not a good time, can this wait till later?, or that they are too busy. Within reason of course. I could go on longer and I could name so many examples but I like to keep my epiphanys short and sweet. Besides...wisdom cannot be taught I merely wanted you to think. What do you truly love? posted by Mikael, Shady, God 12:12 AM Saturday, July 13, 2002 It's just one of those days when you don't wanna wake up everything is fucked everybody sucks you don't really know why but you wanna justify rippin someones head off no human contact and if you interact your life is on contract your best bet is to just stay away motherfucker its just one of those days {chorus} its all about the he says she says bullshit i think you better quit lettin shit slip or you'll be leavin with a fat lip its all about the he says she says bullshit i think you better quit talking that shit its just one of those days feelin like a freight train first one to complain leaves with the blood stain damn right i'm a maniac* you better watch your back cause I'm fuckin up your program and then your stuck up you just locked up next in line to get fucked up your best bet is to just stay away mother fucker its just one of those days {chorus} its all about the he says she says bullshit i think you better quit letting shit slip or you'll be leavin with a fat lip its all about the he says she says bullshit i think you better quit talking that shit punk so come and get it I feel like shit my suggestion is to keep your distance cause right now i'm dangerous we've all felt like shit and been treated like shit all those motherfuckers that wanna step up you know i pack a chainsaw i skin your ass raw and if my day keeps going this way i just might break something tonight pack a chainsaw i skin your ass raw and if my day keeps going this way i just might break something tonight pack a chainsaw i skin your ass raw and if my day keeps going this way i just might break you fuckin face tonight gimme something to break(3x) how bout your fucking face i hope you know i pack a chainsaw a chainsaw a motherfuckin chainsaw so come and get it its all about the he says she says bullshit i think you better quit that shits slick or you'll be leavin with a fat lip its all about the he says she says bullshit i think you better quit talking that shit punk so come and get it Limp Bizkit "Break Stuff" Like that???????? posted by Mikael, Shady, God 12:43 AM Wednesday, July 10, 2002 hey guys, sorry i havent blogged in a while. im in renton WA, staying with my aunt, uncle and cousin. im having a good time i guess. today i slept in until 1pm, and it kinda made me mad for some reason. ive been in a bad mood ever since. and getting owned in counterstrike everytime i try to play doesnt help either. but oh well, thats just today. the rest of the trip has been fine. ive been sitting around on my tukas, playing counterstrike (and getting owned, like i said before), various other N64 games, and a movie here and there. yesterday i played some bocci and mexican horseshoes. good stuff. not a whole lot to do in renton though. stay cool everyone. posted by Jason 9:23 PM Remember how I said that this summer was great?? I LIED!!! It took the most evil turn ever. I got into my first car accident...I am hysterical. And Mike was in the car so you can imagine what I am going through...in fact, he is right here in this room with me taking over my TV. I can't believe it. My dad is going to kill me. I don't ever want to have kids just so that they never have to go through the torture of going through a first accident. Sniffle, sniffle I am so upset. I don't want to even look at my car.... posted by Anonymous 4:49 PM I hereby decree that Snapple Classic Lemonade and Orange Tic Tacs are the true food of the gods. Snapple Classic Lemonade and Orange Tic Tacs. The new Ambrosia! posted by Mikael, Shady, God 1:01 PM Tuesday, July 09, 2002 Just because I don't post very doesn't mean that I don't read this... My summer has been okay. Full of surprises. First, San Diego was fun, not depressing, like I thought it would be. (I mean, my first house party couldn't be that depressing...especially when there is a stripper....) Then, I get home and there are special people who want to hang out with me. Friendships were fixed and then my best friend came home and now I am planning to leave the state...this Friday. For Washington. I swear I am not chasing a certain boy...this was coincidence. Laugh at me later, Mike. So now, I am sitting here, wondering when I will see Men In Black 2 and learning Counter Strike. I don't think I will be playing this game a lot. ha ha...anyways, the ony really bad thing so far that has happened is my car is being stupid...and I don't want to pay to get it fixed...but oh well. So yeah. I do read this stuff, almost on a daily basis, I just never know what to say. I don't have much to complain about. posted by Anonymous 5:19 PM I have some decrees that shall be made at a later date Id post them now but for the two or so other people that read this I want to space out the writing. posted by Mikael, Shady, God 1:10 AM Well I do Sarah. If you want people to ever see your posts though you really HAVE to hit post AND publish or it wont show on the webpage. Thanks for keeping it alive. I would have responded sooner but I was camping you know. I got back Sunday. Let me recap my camping adventure. Day One...Lost for 12 hours in a car. Day Two...Lost for 4 hours walking around. Day Three..Horrible Horrible Sunburn. Day Four...Just standing/sitting in pain from said sunburn. All days...My family was there. Yet somehow despite these minor setbacks I still had fun. Go figure. Must have been the company. And I obviously dont mean my family. Im writing now after having gotten back from work. Dont you absolutely love having something horribly debilitating happen to you and be just ok enough to go to work. Like getting sick Friday and being barely okay enough to go to school on Monday. Thats just horrible. But regardless work was surprisingly pleasant. It is now 1 am and I am extremely chipper. I love working nights. Lots of time to sleep in. I break the dress code even more than usual which in turn makes me comfortable at work for once instead of feeling stuffy so I am actually happy which makes me work harder and amazingly there were like Zero! dumb asses. You always hear the freaks come out at night but apparently they dont do it to shop because I got Zero dumb questions. Zero dumb requests. Zero every dumb thing customers do. Maybe it was just a good night. Im hoping its the night since its what Ill be working three of the four days I work per week. which adds up to beaucoup cash. Life right now...is dare I say....adequate. posted by Mikael, Shady, God 1:06 AM Tuesday, July 02, 2002 One should never get their hopes up. They WILL be crushed! ... like bugs. And by the way life isnt life without fucking with you once in awhile. posted by Mikael, Shady, God 1:05 AM